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FPQ92: Anonymously Yours

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Fandango provocatively asks…

“Do you blog anonymously? Why or why not?”

I do not blog anonymously, though I understand why people do, and sometimes I wish I had. My name is slightly altered from my “real” one, but I can be found and I use my actual face photos to make that process even easier. 🤣

Why am I not anonymous? Well, it’s mainly because I began writing online 20+ years ago with this name and I want to refer to my published work, mostly self-published, but even so. I also write as Anna Fondant, which I’ve made no secret of either. Supposedly, it’s best to have one name per genre, and Anna focuses on romance and erotica. I have a third name for a completely different style of writing, but I unpublished that novel. I intend to edit it and make a trilogy of it… someday! It’s sort of science fiction erotica, or it appears to be sci-fi, but maybe it isn’t.

Dark keyboard

I try not to identify real people in my blog or otherwise unless I have their permission. My “dating stories” have many details obscured, though one guy recognized himself, which turned out to be fun. Once, I ranted about someone (without naming her), and she read it and bitched, so I took down the post. I’ve been more careful since then. I don’t post pics of others until I receive their OK, or if they’re in the public domain, such as Pexels or Pixabay. I also avoid discussing my work, family, or friends in any great detail. In that way, I’m discreet, if not anonymous. I cringe every time I see a “mommy blogger” post embarrassing stories or pics of her kids. One day, they will google themselves…

If I’d been anonymous from the start, I could have used blogging as a great catharsis for my thoughts on relationships, marriage, sex, work, politics, religion, etc. But I didn’t and I don’t. When I say anything on those topics, I’m very careful, sticking to bland stuff like “Vote Blue!” My Twitter is connected here (you have to go to the main blog to see it), but even there I retweet only mainstream Democratic stuff. You may think you know a lot about me because I’ve posted so very very many words, but you actually do not. Even those who were “privileged” to read my private blogs years ago know only a sliver more.

Secret admirer

There was a time when I was extremely depressed because I thought I’d never meet a “soul mate” I could be 100% myself with, and vice versa, but I’m over it. Pretty much. I remember those few times though when I thought I had someone like this, or someone was a potential “this,” and it was ecstatically life-altering. Then came the crash. I’ve now accepted that it’s not going to happen, and hoping for it makes me feel worse, so I have to continue to censor myself with everyone everywhere, in various ways.

Cue sad whiny music… 🎶

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Brain Candy Share

SYW

Melanie has some brain candy questions for us to crunch…

1. “How many people in real life or on social media (including WordPress, which has become a rather social media site) do you consider good enough friends to help you ‘hide the dead body?’” [via Rory]

Since I don’t do anything illegal, I’m going to take this question in its most general sense… how many people can I count on to offer actual help (as opposed to virtual hugs) if I have a truly serious problem. I was in a down mood when I answered “none” to Rory, so I’ll amend that now. My daughters will always help me as much as they can, and vice versa. I have a few RL friends that would (and have) offered assistance to me, such as help with moving ~ not bodies, just boxes!

2. Are You Ready To Order? What Are You Having (craving) right now?

I’ve been craving a lobster roll for ages. It’s on my “bucket list” to nom up on my epic retirement trip across the country, which is likely just a dream now. But! A lobster food truck called “Cousins” has been making the rounds in Orange County, and I plan to meet them soon and get one! 😋 (To eat alone in my car…)

3. How’s the weather in YOUR neck of the woods?

Partially sunny and 72. 🌤

4. There has always been something. Before there was something, there was only nothing. Which do you think is more likely?

I’ll start with “I don’t know,” which is a fine answer to many questions and imo more people should avail themselves of it. But we are very uncomfortable with the anxiety of unknowns, so we attempt to fill them in with our limited human experience. I’m not sure why filling in unknowns with supernatural entities satisfies some people, but perhaps the magical area of my brain isn’t activated. In any case, my “feeling” is that something has always existed. Where it came from, how, when… I have no speculation other than I don’t believe in magic.

This week I am grateful for funny movies to distract me. 🤣

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Tea for Two [flash 250]

Tea garden

“Alan and I went to the Tea Garden on Lakeview last Sunday,” I said to Katie while we were waiting at the salon.

“I’ve always wanted to go!” Katie said. “How was it?”

I shook my head. “Although it was a simple thing to be doing, something strange was happening.”

Katie frowned. “Were they out of scones?”

“No. But while we were having tea, a young woman began singing in a strange language. She had long blonde hair and was dressed like an angel.”

Katie put down her magazine. “Go on.”

“She began rising in the air toward heaven. Naturally, I believed it was the rapture and fell to my knees to confess. Alan did the same.”

“Oh no!” Katie cried. “You didn’t tell about selling your engagement ring and replacing it with a fake, did you?”

“I did,” I sighed. “And then someone yelled cut. It was a movie scene.”

“How’s Alan taking it?”

“Not well, I’m afraid.” I grimaced. “I’ve had to cook Italian food all week to make him stop grumbling. I think I’ve put on three pounds!”

Katie shuddered. “Horrible!”

“He confessed something too though. Can you guess what?”

“I’m so sorry, Marisa!” Katie had gone pale. “It was only during that month you were away twenty years ago. We were both drunk. Can you ever forgive me?”

I stared at her. “I meant that he confessed he gambled away his inheritance. It wasn’t held up in probate.”

“Oh.” Katie said. “How were the scones then?”

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Written for 50 Word Thursday 91.

Quote attributed to – Paulo Coelho – The Valkyries.

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FPQ89: Karma Chameleon

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Fandango provocatively asks…

Do you believe in karma (or a similar “reap what you sow” notion)? Why or why not?

I have a karma-ish belief. It’s more of the reap/sow Christian idea than the Eastern wheel/reincarnation structure. We can observe that actions have consequences, and some of the consequences take years to be fully realized. This isn’t a woo belief; it’s just logic.

Some people seem to lie in wait for karma to “strike” those they dislike, but it’s not always going to be observable. You’re not going to see every ruthless, selfish, greedy person crashing publicly to a terrible end. But many do suffer, which is why they’re so nasty. Pain, whether physical or emotional, can make people act badly toward others. We can infer their suffering by their behavior.

Perhaps more importantly, large-scale results occur after groups of people behave in a similar way. Again, they may take years to actualize, and even then are open to our interpretation. Look at this plague, forex, and how it’s affecting peeps/culture. We certainly haven’t been respecting the earth much lately, and I’m not the only one who “joked” last year that Mother Nature finds ways to rid herself of vast numbers of pesky humans from time to time….

However much we fantasize about karma as a vengeful goddess who smites our enemies, though, it mostly doesn’t work that way. But we can console ourselves that bad people who hurt others/animals often do get hurt at some point as a result of their own behavior. Karma however is more of a long game, group punishment idea (to me). We’re all going to suffer as the logical results take shape from the actions of a powerful few…

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Let There Be Light & Lox

Today’s prompt from City Sonnet is L…

Chanukah lightsLox bagel cream cheese

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Images are mine.

Song Lyric Sunday ~ La

Song Lyric Sunday

It took me a while to come up with a song for Jim’s “la” this week cuz fa-la-la-la-la was stuck in my head! Arghh! But finally one floated into my brain. It’s “Shambala” by Three Dog Night. The lyrics were written by Daniel Moore in 1973. It was recorded by B.W. Stevenson and Three Dog Night, but only the TDN version was a smash hit. Stevenson’s is shorter and more country/twangy ~ it peaked higher in South Africa than TDN’s. TDN’s version peaked at 3 on the Hot 100 in the US.

The lyrics refer to the mythical kingdom of Shambhala, which is supposed to be in the Himalayas. It’s mentioned in various ancient texts, according to Wikipedia. But first the temple was in Peru. What? Idk! Religious stuffs… whaddaya gonna do? Just roll with it. Anyway, in this religion all people are good and kind and cooperate with each other so everyone is free from stress and full of joy. That sounds nice. Okay then…

Shambala by Three Dog Night

Wash away my troubles, wash away my pain
With the rain in Shambala
Wash away my sorrow, wash away my shame
With the rain in Shambala
Ah, ooh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Everyone is helpful, everyone is kind
On the road to Shambala
Everyone is lucky, everyone is so kind
On the road to Shambala
Ah, ooh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
How does your light shine, in the halls of Shambala
I can tell my sister by the flowers in her eyes
On the road to Shambala
I can tell my brother by the flowers in her eyes
On the road to Shambala
Ah, ooh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
How does your light shine, in the halls of Shambala

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Image from Jim Adams

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Holiday Oversharing

Hanukkah Bitmoji

Melanie has questions!

QUESTIONS FOR THE WEEK 12-23-19:

1. Do dogs ‘talk’ (communicate) with their own species?

I think so. I’m not sure if all that barking means anything other than to warn critters away from “their” territory, but dogs seem to have a complex system of body language to communicate with each other. So do cats and other animals, even bugs. We aren’t that special. And no I didn’t read any of the links; I’m just jabbering away, as I do.

2. Have you ever had to work on Christmas Day?

Had to, no, but it’s a good day for me to get work and other chores done, since I don’t celebrate Christmas. This year, I’ll do some work in the morning before heading over to a friend’s house to watch movies.

Merry Christmas Bitmoji

3. If someone gifts you something that you immediately loathe, do you pretend to really like it anyway or are you brutally honest about your opinion?

I find something about it to like and a kind comment to make. “Brutally honest” is a euphemism for being an asshole ~ it’s one of the terms you see a lot on dating sites from men who revel in being jerks. Yuck.

3. Which popular drink, found during the Christmas season most often, is called “milk punch?”

Don’t know, sounds gross.

4. How many ghosts show up during “A Christmas Carol?”

Just had this Q in a trivia game and luckily one of my teammates knew it was 4.

5. Are you all about the holly and jolly or more about remembering the alleged ‘true’ meaning of Christmas?

Neither really, since I celebrate Chanukah, and that only mildly. But I’m not a humbug either… I’m happy for other people’s joy and will go to parties, sing, dance, and be merry.

Meowy Christmas Bitmoji

6. Please share a memory or thought about the holiday season if you’d like, whatever kind of celebration you may observe.

When I was in 5th grade the music teacher asked if anyone was Jewish. Unfortunately, I had told someone I was so she pointed to me. The teacher asked how I celebrated Chanukah and I said I didn’t. He was confused and made a joke about Santa not celebrating Christmas. Everyone laughed and I felt humiliated. I hated him. And them. But it wasn’t their fault. In 6th grade, I stayed home sick on music days around that time to avoid this scenario repeating.

I was a half-Jewish girl who didn’t celebrate the Jewish holidays because my father had no interest in them. My mom liked to put up Christmas lights and decorate cookies, so that’s what we did. We had Easter bunny baskets too. I grew up with all the standard American stuff, even though I didn’t really belong to it. It was easy to give it up when I married a Jewish man. Later, after our divorce, when faced with various dating options, I decided I didn’t want to observe holidays in my home that I no longer felt connected to. (I am fine with not doing anything for any holidays however.) Why do I feel connected to my father’s side and not my mother’s, when he wasn’t even interested in his own holidays? I don’t know.

Dizzy dreidel Bitmoji

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Images from Bitmoji

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Sharing in a Pear Tree

Melanie has some questions now!

QUESTIONS FOR THE WEEK 12-16-19:

• Do you enjoy receiving Christmas cards through snail mail? 

Sure! I like when people personalize them too and do photo cards or write some stuff about what happened during the year. 😻

• Do you like the taste and/or smell of peppermint?

It depends. Not a huge fan of chocolate/mint combos, but I do like peppermints alone for a breath freshener.

• What is your least favorite holiday side dish?

Mashed potatoes. Do not understand the love people have for this boring white food.

• What is the coolest (best) gift you ever gave someone?

I usually go with safe gifts like books or gift cards rather than something cute or funny, so I don’t think any of my gifts could be considered cool, but people usually like what I get them. My daughters used to cringe at the adorable things I’d find for them, which is probably why I switched to more practical presents.

• Bonus question because I thought it was nifty:   What is a Christmas song that makes you cringe?   (Please insert the word “Holiday” for Christmas if Christmas isn’t your thing or bothers you or something)

I don’t mind Christmas songs at all. You’d think as a Jewish atheist I might turn up my nose at them, but I don’t. I especially like some of the rock versions like Bruce Springsteen’s “Santa Claus Is Comin’ to Town.” 🎶

What I can’t stand is Adam Sandler’s Chanukah Song. I feel bad saying this, since I understand he had good intentions when he wrote it, but his voice just grates on my nerves. I can’t bear listening to it at all, and I guess there are 2 or 3 versions now? Idk. I don’t like any of his movies either, except 50 First Dates. The thing is, Jews had plenty of songs before Adam came up with this, and it’s not that hard to figure out who is Jewish (or partly) in Hollywood, if that’s important. We didn’t need this song as he seems to imply in it. But even so, he was trying to do something nice, so I shouldn’t be mean. But…

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Image credit to the Bitmoji app.

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Holiday Share

Tangled in Christmas lights

Melanie has questions…

What’s your remedy for the Holiday blues?

I don’t get the holiday blues… I just get cold. Yep, even in Southern California. Due to a mix of meds, genetics, and lack of exercise, I am almost always freezing 🥶 to death. This is depressing because I sit around my apartment huddled in layers of blankets and feel too emotionally paralyzed to get up and move around, which would make me feel better. When I am forced to go out, I do okay, but it’s hard to move around much when you’re already bundled up. Thanks in advance for the advice I know is coming in comments… I’m sure I haven’t thought of any of it before. 🙄

Frozen Bitmoji

Your favorite beverage (if it differs) during the holiday season?  If it doesn’t differ, just answer the ‘what’s your favorite beverage” part. 

I love eggnog, especially with booze, but it’s cold and alcohol triggers migraines. 😢 So, the next best drink is delicious hot black tea with orange spice and a dash of milk. This is my favorite drink all year long, btw.

This one has been asked before, but what’s your take on pumpkin spice?

Indifference. Don’t particularly care for it as a beverage, but in muffins it’s yummy… and pie with graham cracker crust! 🥧 I do like the scent of anything pumpkin or apple mixed with ginger/cinnamon/cloves. Not sure why everything is love/hate these days; there are loads of things I mildly like but don’t love, and others I prefer to pass up but won’t freak out about if they end up on my plate. Dial it down. Same goes for politics, music, movies, etc. Not everything has to be so extreme.

Is there is a person or god connected with your holiday? 

I am a Jewish atheist, so yes we have the sky guy novel… and no I don’t believe he is real. I am math/science all the way… those are my “faiths.” That doesn’t mean humans know everything or ever will; it just means I don’t feel the need to leap to supernatural explanations for stuff we haven’t been able to figure out (yet). And when it turns out we’ve been wrong about something, we can revise our ideas, unlike some religionists…

• Who are they and do you believe in them?

I don’t believe in any supernatural beings, though they are good material for poetry and fiction. I lump all gods, ghosts, genies, vampires, etc. in the same category. Once you admit one, why not all? Why a god and not a werewolf? 👹

That said, I find militant atheists irritating. It doesn’t bother me that peeps believe in the supernatural as long as they don’t try to convert me or tell me I’m “lesser than” or immoral or whatever. To each their own. Who knows, maybe I’m wrong and there is a god, or a bunch of ’em. But people telling me so won’t convince me. What would? My own direct experience. That’s right. I would need Mr. Big to appear and say hey his own self.

• If you do not believe in these people or gods, does the celebration/honoring of that being, bother you in any way (e.g., ignored, dismissed, angry, etc.)?

Only a few people I know celebrate the Jewish holidays. Mostly I see those around me celebrating Christmas, etc… I think there should be more of that. I love having days off work for other people’s holidays when I don’t have to do anything but laze around. I especially enjoy Christmas lights and cookies and sales, along with the fact that I’m not expected to cook a goose or buy anyone gifts.

Gratitude:

Share a song that you enjoy during this Winter season (whether it’s Christmas, Hanukkah, The Winter Solstice, Kwanzaa and so forth.

I adore this version of “Silent Night”…

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Images from Bitmoji

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Song Lyric Sunday ~ Drifter

Song Lyric Sunday

Thanks again to our marvelous SLS host Jim Adams for coming up with today’s array of prompts. I chose drifter, which is exemplified in “The Wanderer.” Bono of U2 wrote this song and Johnny Cash sang lead vocals; it was released on U2’s 1993 album Zooropa.

I went out walking through the streets paved with gold
Lifted some stones, saw the skin and bones
Of a city without a soul
I went out walking under an atomic sky
Where the ground won’t turn and the rain it burns
Like the tears when I said goodbye
Yeah, I went with nothing
Nothing but the thought of you
I went wandering
I went drifting through the capitals of tin
Where men can’t walk or freely talk
And sons turn their fathers in
I stopped outside a church house where the citizens like to sit
They say they want the kingdom
But they don’t want God in it
I went out riding, down that ol’ eight lane
I passed by a thousand signs
Looking for my own name
I went with nothing
But the thought you’d be there too
Looking for you
I went out there in search of experience
To taste and to touch and to feel’s as much
As a man can before he repents
I went out searching, looking for one good man
A spirit who would not bend or break
Who could sit at his father’s right hand
I went out walking with a bible and a gun
The word of God lay heavy on my heart
I was sure, I was the one
Now Jesus, don’t you wait up, Jesus, I’ll be home soon
Yeah, I went out for the papers
Told her I’d be back by noon
Yeah, I left with nothing
But the thought you’d be there too
Looking for you
Yeah, I left with nothing
Nothing but the thought of you
I went wandering

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