Sanctimonious moon— Why so judgmental? I know where you’ve been; I know who you’ve seen. Leave me to the poverty Of stars, already dead, Burned out like my heart. Slide under the lace Canopy of clouds, Safe swath of lingerie. Don’t frown your face At me tonight— I’m in no mood for a scolding By an obtuse hunk of rock Who didn’t have the sense To stay married to the earth. Oh ho! Didn’t think I knew About that, did you? Go now, leave me To my nightmare, My galloping dream of doom, Urging me past the milestones Along the racetrack to ruin.
It might be a thousand years Before the stars Line up again like this; One last incandescent kiss As the light diminishes And five million miles of dark Ribbon out In a long slow Deathless march.
Eons pass; A glacier cracks; Again the moon Hangs low and blue. Did she count the waves While I waited for you? The tide pulls us into alignment: Two frozen souls Circling Space and time.
I’ve lain with a hundred men And felt nothing; Yet your gaze burns my skin From across an ocean. Tectonic plates shake When we touch At last— Mountains collapse; The earth splits in half.
We retreat, Our cosmology incomplete; Resigned to the separation, The endless analysis and division, The rebalance and reposition, Until equilibrium settles over the seas. We drift once again To opposite ends Of this lonely galaxy.
This is the place, the old ones say, Where moonglow bathes the lake, And an unearthly shimmer shines Beyond the towering pines. They say a spaceship landed here, In a dark, despairing year, Right where the coral poppies bloom– Bereft of sun, they thrive in gloom. Bury your treasure, gems and gold, And it will be increased sevenfold. I think it’s worth a try, don’t you? Meet you there at half past two.
Treasure beckons in a gorgeous dream, Sparkling under an azure sky; The moon is lit with magic. Violet blossoms weep With joy at my news: A love story Starring me And you. Buzz… Ding… Morning Alarm rings, Breaking the spell Of wishful thinking. Back to the rain and gray Reality I travel. But on this ordinary train, A man with violet eyes says hi.
Image from Lovethispic. Poetry form: nonet/reverse nonet.
I watch from my window While your tail lights vanish in the rain. The streets smearstain Into a red and green fingerpainting, Flickering with the traffic signals, As fickle as your interest in me. Blurred and tearstreaked, The wet masterpiece Stays illuminated By a cold lemondrop moon.
I know I’ll never see you again.
All the frothy promises And cottoncandy plans Dissolve in the morning mist. My lips still hum from your kiss, But I feel your vague disappointment, Your perpetual darkness Guarded by barbedwire.
I wander outside to feed the ferals— Two slinky shadows, silhouettes cut from coal; Crunchy nuggets clink into the cats’ dish. How I wish I could make a wish, But there are no do-overs here. I always fail with a complicated man; I don’t respond well to the tortured genius soul Who needs the perfect femme fatale, A Marilyn to his Al.
I fail with the uncomplicated too.
You told me I was nothing like her, The ex who depressed you— I thought that was a good thing; But now I imagine you search For her likeness, In hopes of recreating some sick Woody Allen type lobster scene, To find catharsis And absolution. And though I sneer and snark, I want to play a part In this execution.
I gaze up at that judgy stone face, Unflinchingly— In my disordered state: Jammie pants, damp coat, Tangled mass of bedhead. “Is it something I said?” Yes. I ponder this relationship chess; I might just be on the precipice Of finally understanding Something, Anything, A small piece of this Jagged, glassy, bloody puzzle.
I wanted to be your moon, Distant and removed, But necessary As gravity; You were my only focus.
While you tilted elsewhere, I evolved to revolve, Resolved to be resolute, Orbiting in tribute. But I was too creepy In my silent devotion— Round and round, Full, half, harvest, dark, Managing your oceans.
I learned to parallel park By necessity In the crowded airless Density Of nothingness. I confess, I was served The restraining order Yesterday.