TGIF ~ Loneliness

Happy Friday.

And I love you so
The people ask me how
How I’ve lived till now
I tell them “I don’t know”

I’ve felt kinda lonely this week, not sure why. Partly it’s due to missing our little Tiger, which means I’m extra super duper grateful for Gatsby’s good health (x’ing fingers), and partly it’s due to the shorter days. There’s something about turning my headlights on during my commute home that makes me think ugh it’s winter again, how depressing, even if it’s still 90 freaking degrees outside.

I guess they understand
How lonely life has been
But life began again
The day you took my hand

The darkening days make me more inclined to hibernate in my house and do nothing socially with other people, which isn’t good for me if that goes on too long. Luckily, I have some nice plans, one of which includes seeing my eldest daughter tomorrow. But I do think about the holidays coming up and how much I miss my mom. I also miss what I never had: a big, loving, close family, who always have each other no matter what. I was blessed with my wonderful girls, fab sons-in-law, and now my sweet grands, so I am thankful for them ~ we’re a small group, but we have lots of love!

And yes I know how lonely life can be
The shadows follow me
And the night won’t set me free
But I don’t let the evening get me down
Now that you’re around me

I’ll be honest: something about winter gets me down, which is related to my failure to find “my person” and create and maintain a romantic, lifetime relationship. Summer is fun and there are lots of activities to distract me from thinking about this topic, but as fall trundles on toward the holidays, couples are so couple-ish that it’s difficult not to mourn this particular aspect of my life, even if I wouldn’t want it if it appeared now. It’s a weird thing. I wish I could have found “my person,” but it’s too late at this point ~ I simply do not want to compromise on anything or tolerate some man telling me what to do (and you know they would).

And you love me too
Your thoughts are just for me
You set my spirit free
I’m happy that you do

My life is so much better without all that drama. And yet… and yet… I still think about it at this time of year especially. What about you? Lonely, not lonely, weekend plans, no plans? Respond in the comments or link back from your own post. Feel free to use the spiffy image that Fandango found, if you like.

I sprinkled lyrics from “And I Love You So” (written by Don McLean for his 1970 debut album Tapestry) throughout this post, and there are three versions that I know of. If you have time, please rate them in order. Here’s mine:

Don McLean (third)

Perry Como (second)

Elvis Presley (first)

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