Truthfully, I have several smiles to share. My grands got over their (non-covid) sickies last week and I was able to enjoy a super fun day Sunday with them. We colored and made cupcakes and played with Mega Bloks and took a walk to a cute café where I had my first açaí bowl. I know I’m late to the açaí party… it was delicious!
Lily (pictured) is all healthy again too, and I can’t wait to meet her next week when I go up to NorCal to visit my daughter and son-in-law (and their other doggo Rory). I always have such a nice time with them, plus I haven’t been away in ages. Well, it feels like ages! Because of the weird 2020 lockdown + isolation dynamic, everything before that is a big blur. Or maybe it would be anyway at my age.
Some of my friends are doing NaNoWriMo, and I have to confess that I’ve been feeling some nostalgia over being excited about writing. Don’t get me wrong ~ I enjoy my blog ~ but it isn’t the same as that fizzy feeling of starting a new novel and thinking okay, this is the one, this is the writing everyone will love… this book will sell like mad and cause my previously overlooked books to sell too. Oh me oh my, how will I handle all that fame and fortune, not to mention negotiating the movie rights…
But I recently archived every WIP to the cloud. I just can’t do it any longer, can’t deprive myself of sleep, social life, and movies to scribble away day after day only for it all to sit ignored on the shelf. And no matter how much advice I get about marketing, I don’t want to do that either. I mean, of course I could try to plaster ads everywhere, insert my links into chats, and be generally obnoxious, but I simply will not do that. I prefer to give it all up and just post little things here.
Yet there are moments of regret and I don’t deny that. I have moments of regret over giving up dating/romance too, but that was for the best and so is this. I am finally getting good sleep on a regular basis, instead of it being a rare thing. I feel much more centered and “normal.” I don’t feel consumed by drama. These positives could apply to either thing. Hope is so tenacious though… just when I think everything is cool and my life is fine, a silly flutter of “what if?” begins to tickle my brain. Ugh. Go away!
Finally, I listened to/watched Taylor Swift’s “All Too Well” yesterday and liked it. I’m not an obsessed fan, but I enjoy several of her songs and used one for SLS recently. I don’t buy into the idea that you have to love something or hate it. There are plenty of things I enjoy mildly or dislike a bit. As far as people getting upset that she makes her exes look like dicks, I have no sympathy for them whatsoever. If you don’t want to be portrayed badly, then don’t behave badly.
You know who you are.
Image from Diane.
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