Kitty Spirit

Mindlovemisery prompts us to choose a spirit animal.

“The cat, as a symbol, carries double meanings mostly. It balances two opposite things always – for instance, light and dark, rest and action, outer and inner, up and down, good or bad, etc.” ~ Spiritual Unite

That’s how I am, a balance of extremes, struggling to reconcile opposing desires and philosophies, and hovering in the middle. People think they understand me, but they don’t; like a cat, I’m predictable until I’m suddenly not.

Continuing the prompt, now we are to pick a destination. I choose home sweet home. Like a kitty, I’m fond of warmth and small, cozy spaces. I don’t enjoy loud crowds and bright lights. I crave my familiar foods and comforts, my soft blankets and white noise fans. If I play music or a television show, the volume is low. I don’t mind guests, but only a few at a time, not a giant party.

Now I’m to pick an activity. I would love to curl up with a good book on my Kindle tonight and maybe a few delicious cookies (how did my phone know to say cookies?!), but I suspect that, much like my spirit cat, I will soon be off in the Land of Nod because I didn’t get a good night’s sleep last night.

Next I’m to include an obstacle (physical or psychological) that must be overcome. One of my goals in progress is to actually learn to trust my “animal instincts” in regards to boundaries that other people transgress. I am doing better, but I still have a way to go, especially with reaction time. A cat has a lightning-fast reactions, and when I have that uncomfortable psychological feeling, I need to know it’s time to physically move away/leave a situation, not dawdle because of fears of hurting someone else’s feelings.

“Eff this” ~ is what a cat says, basically. And it’s what I need to say too.

Now, to finish up, I include a lesson learned on my journey. I’ve learned that I do really well alone! Cats are independent, though some can be cuddly and affectionate with humans, and some do pal around together, but they don’t need a pack leader the way dogs do… and neither do I. It took me a long time to understand that not only am I perfectly capable of living alone, but in fact I thrive alone. Being partnered was stifling to me in so many ways. I suppose it’s not out of the realm of possibility that I might find a partner someday who celebrates my unique spirit (and vice versa) without smothering it in the process, but the hour is getting late. In the meantime, I’m doing quite well, TYVM.

Cat photos all from Pixabay.

22 responses to “Kitty Spirit

  1. A purrfect post.

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  2. I can relate to much of this piece. I can’t say I am as self-sufficient as I would like to be or even should be though! Veryl self-aware writing!

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  3. What a fabulous celebration post to cats Paula, l am guessing Master Gatsby helped to ‘s’purr this along?

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  4. I’m not a cat lover but I still love the pics and your post!

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  5. Awesome! πŸ˜€ thats great to know you are doing so well on your own! I dont know what animal I’d choose as a spirit animal! xo

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  6. I can understand that need to be able to get out of a situation quickly – it’s self-preservation.

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  7. I relate to almost every thing you posted. Sometimes I do enjoy a party at my place, though. But I haven’t had one in years, so how much do I enjoy them, really? LOL. I’m afraid I may have gone too far in the opposite direction with regard to letting people know how I really feel, though. Was tired of feeling stepped on, so now I annoy others. I have a very real feeling that my bosses think I’m a troublemaker at work. Uh, oh. And yearly performance reviews are this week. I guess I’ll find out. But everything else? Cats, quiet, home, special enjoyments and things, yep. That’s me. I like sitting in my chair watching my favorite shows. I’ll watch them over and over because they’re familiar. Sometimes I’ll go to bed early and read a romance. I’m not big into deep stuff any more. I’m doing things to make my life healthier in as many ways as I can, in my mind, body, work, spaces. I’m tired, and I just want to let go of all of the things that have weighed me down and have better, kinder adventures in the future.

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